Desensitized not
If the air can only swallow foolish people whole, then I wish it would do that to me now so I can just fade away.
How can people disappear permanently? I want to completely vanish from the face of the earth. This feeling would probably last all night. Count on my senseless mind to overthink again.
I made a fool out of myself. I am embarrassed. It isn't such a big deal at others' point of view... but it's just me. I am the guilty one. I am guilty.
What am I going to do? I want to guard my heart so bad. :'(
Yet here I am writing about it... musing about it! I want to cry but the tears won't come.
I'm in trouble again, am I not?
They say that if something is too good to be true, it probably isn't really true. Why is this suddenly happening? Now, that I haven't even figured out what it is that I truly want for my future. I don't want to make my life more complicated than it already is.
Dear heart... stand your ground. Please. I know there were poems written in the past, which meant this same problem had been given a thought, or two... but don't wonder now. Please, be that heart, which had a strong resolve about what is right and not right for itself.
Why is this suddenly happening. I am not prepared. I was so sure I was desensitized more than a decade ago! What was it that I wrote then? Left that person in a Hollywood world, while I stay content in my desolate island? I was such a melodramatic! Am I being so melodramatic now? I probably am. I think I am going crazy!
Lord is this a joke? I think it's kind of cruel. Please don't do this to me. It's too much for me to bear.
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