Too Many Walls
My heart is like a sand castle. Not the type that can easily be wrecked by the harsh waves that sweep the shore. Its walls, high, hard and fragile at the same time.
With everything I had put it through, I am trying to make up to it by guarding it so hard. I don't think it would allow me to love again. All my decisions when it comes to matters concerning it turned out to be mistakes. Mistakes I seem to never learn from. So yeah, maybe I am afraid... or maybe... just maybe, I don't believe in love working out for me... ever.
Could it be the reason why I keep letting people leave just like that? I have become an expert watching them go. I would hurt, but I could not bring myself to chase after them.
For the longest time, I haven't liked anybody, because I was so good with keeping my walls up. I was comfortable that way. My heart was worry free. I could not ask for more.
Then one day somebody came... and though he didn't try too hard, he was able to break some parts of this fortress I built around myself. I felt scared. I think I scared him away too.
Still keeping my walls up. It is better this way.
I should keep guarding my heart. I should guard my heart. I want to guard my heart so bad.
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